Break my heart

"Therefore I glory in Christ Jesus in my service to God." Romans 15:17

God's two greatest commandments are to Love Him and Love our neighbor. God holds each of us accountable for keeping with these commandments. God calls all of us to keep these commandments by breaking our hearts for what breaks His heart. For some people, God breaks our hearts to love and serve the homeless, the hungry, those in the sex-slave-trade, the person behind you in the supermarket, shut-ins (elders in nursing homes), and orphans; Some people God calls to love and serve overseas, and some people God calls to love and serve in their own neighborhood.
So why is it so hard to go when we're called to go, to let go of all that's holding us back?
We get scared when we think of taking that leap of faith, making ourselves afraid that when we jump we'll fall head on into the ground for a nose dive. We easily forget that God has promised to always protect us and provide for us. Not only should we not think twice about going for that jump when God calls us, but we should also jump with confidence knowing that when we taking a leap of faith in the Lord, we will soar like eagles.

This has been a topic I've been struggling with over this past year. Not only taking the leap of faith when a leap is necessary on the path in which God has laid out for me, but also discerning what leap of faith God is calling me to take. Is God calling me to a life overseas, in another state, or somewhere here in Ohio? Who does my heart break for...the homeless, the hungry, the obese, those in the sex-slave-trade, children, elders, etc, etc.
I don't know who my heart breaks for and I have been trying to figure that out all year, and I think if I knew who God has laid on my heart then maybe that might help me sort out what I'm going to do with my life, or better yet what God wants me to do with my life. The only answer I can come up with right now is that God will reveal what He has in store for me when the time is right- you know, like in Psalm 119:105 "The word is a lamp to my feet and a light for my path." If you've ever been walking in the dark and relied on a flashlight or a lantern, you'll understand that the light only allows you to see enough for a couple steps at a time. Likewise, God doesn't reveal more than we need to know at a time.

It's frustrating, I guess I tend to find myself jealous or envious of others who seem to know what God has in store for them- who their hearts are broken for, where they are being called, and what they are going to do.
When God calls them, they don't think twice before going. But I feel when God calls me, I'm hesitant with worries of being provided for and questions of whether or not I am qualified, is this really what God wants for me- etc. Fact of the matter is God doesn't call the equipped, God equips the called.

"Let my heart be broken with the things that break the heart of God." -Bob Pierce, founder of World Vision