Monday, January 25, 2010

A Fork in the Road

Decisions, decisions! Recently, in my relationship with Christ I've been learning about paths. Quite frankly, I've come to a fork in the road. Last year, when inquiring about how to discern the difference between what we want and what God wants for I us, I learned that; Although God opens a specific door of opportunity for us, sometimes He opens a multitude of doors and we get to choose which door to walk through. It isn't always a matter of there being a good choice and a bad choice. Sometimes there are two really great choices and we just need to walk with Christ holding on to those choices with open hands. It's a matter of us choosing what we want.

Here is where my path comes to a fork in the road:
  • Marry the man God has chosen for me   OR
  • Live the life God has chosen for me
I am dating one of thee most fabulous gentleman, I love him and I am so in love with him. I would be so happy to marry him and dig into a career here in the United States. On the other hand, I had a small taste of what it might be like to live in Europe and I liked it. I would be so happy to take part in a career overseas.
However, my boyfriend doesn't feel called to a life overseas. He is totally down n cool with me doing short term mission trips, but if I decide to go long term I'm almost certain he doesn't want to wait around for me.
The first thing most people might think in this situation is if he loved me he would go with me, but on the contrary if I loved him I would stay with him. Well, that's a dead end argument so we're not even going to go there. Secondly, if he loved me, like I want the man I marry to love me, he will wait for me. If he doesn't want to wait for me, then maybe he's not the man God wants me to marry. Boy, that's hard to swallow.
I want to want what God wants for me, but I just don't know what it is God wants for me: A life in the United States with the man I love or a life overseas (Europe) with a man I love and just haven't met yet?
I have a year and a half to sort it all out and I'm confident God will reveal my path to me when the time is just right.
I just want to be sure I know what direction I am going when I graduate. As Andy Stanley says, "Direction determines destination, not intentions." So, though our intentions may be good, if we're not going in the correct direction, then we won't get to where we're going or better yet where God wants us to be.

I don't know what forks in the road you've dealt with, are dealing with, or will deal with but what ever it is I pray that you let the Lord be your guide. Know that Jesus is Lord and He wants the very best for you and me.
Hold your dreams with open hands :)

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